Monday

(Untitled - 8x24 - Acrylic, acrylic inks and mixed media - Spring 2010)

I've not painted now in almost 3.5 weeks.  It feels weird but I seem to work in bursts.  When I'm done I am drained of energy.  That is why I can paint 5-7 paintings and then nothing for a few weeks.  I'm not sure why that is, but it is for me.


I'm actually quite tired.  I'm really fried to be truthful.  I think with everything that needs to be done around the house, the things in the garden that need finishing and the kids activities and being there for whatever my husband can't get to (he's swamped too), I think I'm just exhausted.


Exhaustion really bites.  I'll be glad when it passes so I can get back to work in the studio.  


I took my paintings in the Visual Art Exchange in Raleigh for the Unfettered Exhibition.  I guess we poor slobs who entered will know something on the 4th whether it's thumbs up or thumbs down.  I saw some of the work when I went in.  They were really good.  I began ruminating on my choices for the submission...analyzing it to death.  Did I pick the right ones?  Did I over or under price myself?  On and on and on.  It's funny that for such a typically upbeat person I can catastrophize like no bodies business.  Guess I have always waited for the other shoe to drop.  That's been part of my life since I can't remember when.


I did apply for my business licenses and all that.  I actually ordered my business cards too. The cards are here, but the license has not.  Even though I got the email.  Since it is the State, I'm sure it takes a while.


Well, I am going to scoot.  I don't think anyone will notice anyway. :I


~Peace
Michelle